Thursday, August 1, 2013

Montana Is Beautiful….But…

March 20, 2012 by  
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I took this picture a few days ago while my husband and I were outside in my backyard and it took my breath away! This place is beautiful, I will never deny that, not a day goes by that I don’t see the beauty. But it is not home. My home is in Florida, where the rest of my family is. I say this because I get the feeling that maybe I am hurting some people’s feelings here in Big Sky. Just because I am going home to another state does not mean that I don’t like this beautiful part of the country. I do, I really do, but it is just too isolating for me. I am too social to be an hour away from things, I miss Starbucks and even though I am eating healthier, I miss the occasional burger joint. I miss taking my daughter shopping whenever I want, not planning for an hour trip each way to get to the nearest store. I miss my family and my friends back in Orlando, more than I ever thought I would. I miss fitting in, weird to say in such a large city, but I don’t fit in here, some of the people here in Big Sky have known each other for decades and have lots of things to talk about, I have that too, just not here. Don’t get me wrong, the people here are amazing, very friendly, and I am talked to, just not as comfortably as I would like. I know all this takes time, but after almost a year I don’t think I am getting anywhere.

So with 98 days left until we leave, I will try to soak in as much beauty as I can and leave here with good memories, some that will last a lifetime. Montana is a beautiful piece of our country but I need the beauty of my home in my life, I hope that everyone here understands that. It has been a great adventure, one that I will never forget, but I am ready to go home…

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8 Responses to “Montana Is Beautiful….But…”
  1. 12 Years ago I moved here from Tulsa.
    Here is country, planning for a trip to the “large” stores is at the very least an hour away.

    I fell in love with here, this is home for me and my kids. I wouldn’t want to go back to the city.

    I wish you so much luck and love, enjoy the beauty of it while you’re there, it’s just not a life for everyone.

  2. Kristi says:

    From one Florida girl to another, there really is no place like home. :) My only wish is that our town (Palatka) had more things to do, a Starbucks would be great! lol Not gonna complain though since Jax, Gainesville, Daytona & St. Augustine are all surrounding us. So, I will just say welcome home in advance and safe travels!

  3. @Kristi Thanks for the safe travels wishes :)

  4. aaw I hear exactly what your saying trust me and I didn’t move half way across the united states to know exactly how you feel. Home is home and that’s all their is to it. I lived in a very small small town for 42 years from the time I was age 2 then at 44 I moved. Not to another state just to another town in the same state. Only an hour drive from my home town but I want to go home. I miss seeing my family and my friends. Today was one of those days. Gas is almost $4 a gallon and I didn’t care so I jumped in my car and went and spent the day in my home town. It was great. I spent the afternoon teaching my 72 year old mother what blogging was all about and you know what I’m going back tomorrow to help her set up her eReader. I’m lucky I could do that because it was only a two hour drive round trip. I can’t imagine if I live as far as you do from my home town. Go home enjoy your family your friends and you home. :)

  5. Thanks Rhonda, I plan to do just that when I get back :)

  6. Andrea Smith says:

    I can relate to that feeling of seeing a beautiful place only to feel a strong longing for home afterwards. And not only that, when you leave your loved ones at home too, the homesickness just gets bigger and bigger

  7. Margaret says:

    Oh Jennifer – I am living this exactly now. 15months ago, we packed up our life and our children and moved 2 states away from all our friends and family, and the place we had lived most of our lives. I have discovered that rather than getting easier, as each month passes, my homesickness and yearning for all my loved ones and familiar things has grown more intense. My husband doesn’t quite understand, and I’ve discussed this with him many times. Our new city is a wonderful, vibrant place, with more to do and see; but it’s not “home”. Personally I don’t see us living forever here, and, if all goes to plan with my husbands business goals, the idea of returning home is not so far fetched. Never say never. I wish you good luck for the future and I can’t wait to read more of your adventures.

  8. @Margaret Good luck with your endeavors, I know how hard all those decisions are!

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